Come to mention it, a lot of you out there have these symptoms...
You're next. Oooh, you're soooo next!
What have I wrought? I am getting worried about you, lately. You were so comfortable, so emotionally stable and balanced... maybe not happy or emotionally alive, perhaps, but a comfortable little worker.
Look at you now... you babble obsessively to friends about LJ like some sort of deranged homeless person.
Just examine your own words for the meaning:
"I am a mosaic of tendrils" = disorganization and instability in self-image, borderline personality disorder.
"bursting electric" = electrical shock sensations, seizures. Possible pyrodoxine (vitamin B6) deficiency, biochemical imbalance.
"radiating songs not of meaningless words but sounds that mean much." = auditory hallucinations, possible schizophrenia
"I'm consumed with the beauty of scratches..." = obsessive-compulsive disorder, warning signs of self-mutilation and suicidal thoughts.
Take a look here... it is a list of the first warning signs for mental illness... let's see which ones apply to you.
Depression, an inability to sleep, sudden shift in basic personality, hyperactivity, inability to concentrate, preoccupation with the occult, indifference, dropping out of activities, drug or alcohol abuse, unusual sensitivity to stimuli (noise, light, clothing),inappropriate laughter, bizarre behavior (skipping, wearing torn clothing exclusively, etc.), irrational statements, strange posturing, rigid obstinacy...
...and the most telling signs:
- excessive writing (or childlike printing) without apparent meaning
- Peculiar use of words or language structure
Come back to us, dear...