April 28th, 2003


Rainy Monday morning in northern California...

Going to open the window and listen to it fall. Not a lot of wind out there like yesterday. Too bad, as my windchimes are also right outside the computer room window.

Tomorrow is our weekly Tea & Sympathy gathering at the house, located in Santa Clara in sunny California. As always, everyone is welcome. Email for directions... Next Tuesday will be iceblink's birthday, and I'm finally coming into my inheritance, so expect things to get a bit more swank very quickly. (We *heart* our guests!)

For various reasons, I have been thinking of larger issues of maintaining an undercurrent of peace, comfort, and openness within public (virtual and 'real life') spaces. Chaos and conflict intrudes upon every aspect of the world, so what do you do when it pokes its head in your door? Do you really need to kick chaos out, or, given the proper environment / social structure, can you fetch Chaos a cup of tea or a glass of wine and welcome Chaos to sit in the comfy chair and to make themselves at home... and if so, what furnishings do you nail to the floor?!

Thinking of Comfort and Joy, of Scottish folk music, and of the wonderful Bill Paterson...

Hm. Maybe tomorrow's gathering will be a bit of a ceilidh, without the barn!

Again?! But her music was just getting interesting again..!

Sinead O'Connor has cancelled her tour dates with Massive Attack and has released a statement saying that she's retiring from the music business.

While I can understand her reasons for this, something about it reminds me of those people who delete their journal every six months...

I understand their reasons, mind you. Being so exposed publically (and sometimes so influenced to extremes) can be difficult, and there are good reasons to pull back, restructure, or even temporarily halt your degree of public exposure... but the thing is, you are still you and there is probably something that made you who you were/are.

Rather than trying to cut off a part of who you were (and, to some extent, still are...) isn't it more productive to consider what it is that you would like to become and to establish limits and boundaries that are appropriate for you to be that person?! It is hard to believe that the very act of recording one's voice is enough to ruin one's life... touring, dealing with the record labels, getting hounded by the press... yes, I can see that causing problems, but recording in and of itself?

Somehow, I don't think that it is ruining her life. In a year, she will still be Sinead O'Connor and people will still bug her, whether she releases albums of folk music or not.

If you really don't want the attention, don't tour. Don't put your picture on the cover. Change your appearance. Record under a pseudonym. But to throw away your gift forever?!

Maybe it's just me, but I would sooner be a dancer who cuts off my feet than a singer who loses my voice.