She was in a bit of a crabby mood because of her health, her arm aching, our finances, etc. We had a really nice long talk about everything though... seems like the best talks we have are late at night, cuddling on the bed with the lights off.
I think we both feel a bit unprepared for upcoming changes - her going back to work, and me being increasingly busy with LiveJournal. It will be odd having nobody here to keep me company during the days except the cats, but it will help me focus more on doing things for LJ. Just as well... lots happening this month. Travelling to Austin in a week, and I still don't have a place to stay yet.
Not sure I will be going to the LA LJ Bash. It would be nice to go, but it's hardly necessary and neither Kirsten or I really have the money to justify it. I know I have a ride if I need one, though.
I'm actually looking forward to going to Fantasm in Atlanta quite a bit, though... especially after seeing Insomniac with Dave Attell profile Atlanta nightlife the other night. (Insomniac is a show that rules in so many fundamental ways, btw.)
I'm going to be talking about LJ at Fantasm. It looks like I may also be a part of a panel called "Polyamory vs. Swinging". ( Polyamory vs. swinging? Is this really an either/or choice? I mean, what if you just want no talking, just head? What are you supposed to do then, buy it?!)
I had to think for a little while about whether I wanted to be a part about the panel, but not for long, really. I don't have any particular interest in making a living talking about sexuality. The funny thing is, I actually do like to talk about sex and sexuality in detail... maybe part of it has to do with my feelings about some of those who do such work for a living (i.e. Exploitative, irrational, granola-chewing, wannabe cult leaders who charge you five hundred bucks to "get in touch with yourself"). I'd much rather learn more about sex from smart lesbian with a strap-on who swears like a sailor, thankyouverymuch. ( I need more tough lesbian friends. They're good drinking companions, they're less obnoxious than most men, and they like to talk about sex just as much as you do.)
Ultimately, I think its because sexuality doesn't (and shouldn't) singlehandedly define who I am as a person. I'm alpha and omega, that which is, which was, and which is to come. Jesus has left the building, but there's no need to be concerned, because I'm standing in for him 'til he gets back. I'm sure if he were here, he'd appologize profusely and let you know how dreadfully embarrassed he about the delay. Jesus is just like that. As for me standing in for him, yes, I know it's a bit like having Tiny Tim opening for The Doors, but what can you do?! I'm kickin' it on the ukelele, old school.
As for sexuality, it isn't just a matter of orientation or preference - it is also about culture. All cultures have common needs and a common sense of humanity, but there are also differences between cultures that the larger society needs to understand, accept, and embrace.
Awhile back, I found out that someone famous was polyamorous and bisexual. While I thought it was great that this was the case, part of me couldn't help but feel that if they were more open about it, they could really help others to "get it". Well, I'm no celebrity. I'm just this guy who, at best, has a rather cool (if financially unrewarding) job. Still though, I have met some people on LiveJournal who look up to me because I'm pretty honest and open about who I am. If it might be of some help to someone else that I should be myself, then I think I can live with that.